I was doing some reaserch for my history final and I found this page and I think it’s really sweet and I want everyone to see it.
for the first time in about 4 months. We actually went out to lunch just me and him after he got his prosthetic. I’m speechlessly happy.
I honestly feel so disconnected from everyone. No one gives a shit.
now I can’t see anything.
we went over a study that put this electrical measurement onto the penis and measured the blood flow and like the size of erection a man would get when watching a porn. Well they split them into two groups, one who identified as “homophobic” and one who identified as being accepting of homosexuality and stuff. Well when shown a gay porn, those who were homophobic showed more blood flow activity to the penis and more arousal than those who were accepting of same sex couples. I’m sure I’m leaving some stuff out and I don’ have all the information but I was so interested in this study it was so crazy.
and bought a cream cheese danish and a spider ring. Neither of these things are grown on a farm so i think I kind of defeated the whole purpose of going to a FARMERS market. My mom paid off my tuition fees so I can register for summer classes AND my my dad talked to the bio teacher (they became friends when my dad took his class) and I am okay to take the bio class I need AND miss 2 weeks to go on vacation. Such a good day.
me and Jakob cuddled, played video games, ate a whole bunch of food, and played the penis game in Carl’s junior. I am so lucky I have him. He is pretty much my perfect match.
I haven’t washed my hair and its so oily and I HATE it. I’m a very clean hair person, but I finally understand why people skip their washes for hairsyles. My hair is gross but seriously it will do ANYTHING that I want. Victory roll? No problem. Beehive? yeah. Whip in the wind and look beautiful but still retain original shape and not get in eyes? Hell yes. It’s gross but it’s kinda awesome.
Take care of me. Make me smile and laugh. Let me sigh and rest my head on your chest. Let me listen to your heartbeat and feel your breath. Let me feel safe. Hold my hands. Kiss me. My shoulders, my nose, my thighs. I never knew where to go but now I know. You’re home to me.
I am so done with how weird and confusing my fucking world has been lately. I really honestly can’t do fucking anything right i am so exhausted with trying every day. I really can’t make anyone happy anymore. I’m gonna lay in bed, maybe make some tea and listen to volumes and stop giving a shit because I’m so exhausted with life.
